Dark and disturbing things are about to happen in Scurvytown, and I am very excited about writing them. Soon enough (meaning tonight), I shall produce a little blurb called “Propaganda Week,” which will point to something that will change the face of Scurvytown forever, and put new spins on existing character relationships and alter the petty and selfish things that the citizens care about.
I think about that, throw a few words at the screen, and then dive back into my reading for school. And as I am reading, my mind wanders, because I have major issues focusing and really paying attention to the text. This is my #1 issue with reading books: full attention, comprehension, and then, constructing intelligent and insightful responses. Boo on this because this is exactly what I need to learn for school. It’ll be a struggle, I fear, but I believe I will start to make strides about mid-semester and finally find my footing.
One thing that occurred to me while my mind was wandering off my reading, is how much I have learned so far, just two weeks into the school year. I am finding my greatest source so far not to be from the texts, and not the instructors, but from my fellow grad students. I have been out of school longer than pretty much everyone in my classes, so it’s really put me on a hell of a learning curve. Luckily, I am a quick study, and readily adapt to changing circumstances and landscapes of thought. Listening to the other students, as we dive into this material together is already amazing. I feel like a sponge, soaking in all this knowledge. My poor brain gets a bit overwhelmed by the vastness of all there is to do and learn in order to succeed in my classes, but I truly feel like all of us have a respect for learning and for one another that we’re going to purposefully and inadvertently help one another get through this… not that a learning experience is something to “get through,” but rather to create a foundation or a backbone.
And honestly? It’s about time I got a little more backbone, especially in the self-esteem department.
Looking forward to more learning experiences, and to let my brain soak up the knowledge at its own pace, for new perspectives, and for some peace of mind, that I can do this grad school thing, because sometimes I worry that I have taken on a bit too much than I can handle.
It’s like learning to run, I suppose, which is yet another thing on my agenda lately: the harder you push yourself, the easier it gets. Many difficult things are the same way; you have to get over the hard part in order to reap the rewards, and while you’re in the struggle, it can be difficult to focus on much else. So you blog about it instead of reading your schoolwork, you know, for a hypothetical example (*wink*)
On that note, it’s time for me to finish this reading, file my response, and get some much needed sleep. Oh, and finish writing my propaganda for impending DOOM! Muahahahahaaaaa!